Trista Mateer

You will meet people in your lifetime who demand to have poems written about them. It’s not something they say. It’s something about their hands, the shape of their mouths, the way they look walking away from you.

Honeybee is an honest take on walking away and still feeling like you were walked away from. It’s about cutting love loose like a kite string and praying the wind has the decency to carry it away from you. It’s an ode to the back and forth, the process of letting something go but not knowing where to put it down. Honeybee is putting it down. It’s small town girls and plane tickets, a taste of tenderness and honey, the bandage on the bee sting. It’s a reminder that you are not defined by the people you walk away from or the people who walk away from you.

Consider Honeybee a memoir in verse, or at the very least, a story written by one of today's most confessional poets.


2015 Goodreads Readers Choice Winner - Poetry

"With gut truths and gin-clear imagery, Trista Mateer reminds us of all those places left unexplored by language. The wonders and especially the heartbreaks of love occupy much of her attention, and also best demonstrate her uncanny ability to chart new ground." — Foreword Reviews

"This is a collection that will beg you to be dogeared, coffee-stained, & shared." Amanda Lovelace, Author of The Princess Saves Herself in This One

"With Honeybee, Trista has captured in amber something beautiful and tragic, joyful and painful." Iain S. Thomas, Author of I Wrote This For You

“Bitter sweet with memory and softness, this book is an intimate and profound look at sexuality, heartbreak, loneliness, loss, love, healing and everything in between.” Nikita Gill, Author of Wild Embers

"How can something that hurts so much still be so tender? Mateer triumphs in this exploration. We are humbled to be witness.” — Ari Eastman, Author of Bloodline

“In Honeybee, Trista Mateer pulls the layers back on an old love and invites her readers to pick apart the pieces with her. She spares no one and nothing and the result is beautiful and awful and gorgeous and gut-wrenching.” — Fortesa Latifi, Author of No Matter The Time

"Trista writes about love so honestly. It's messy, reckless hope. It's sticky-fingered stubbornness. This collection is a must-read for any queer femme, and for anyone who has ever lost themselves in a feverish want.” — Clementine von Radics, Author of Mouthful of Forevers



The smell of your hair puts my stomach in knots.
I want to lay roses at your feet.
I want to pray at the church of your hands.
I want to thank you for every awful thing you ever did to me.
No one will ever be able to knock the wind out of me again.
Not like that.
Not like you.

My strength is defined,
not by what I continue to carry,
but by what I have allowed myself
to put down.

I still remember you
as a little girl
who overwaters plants
because she doesn’t know
when to stop giving.